Crossover

It might have been a snap in my nerves or smt but I no longer feel like 'FML'.
Again, realising that all along it was mindgames I had. My own mindgames.
Starting everything afresh in the new year.
Afterall, I've got nothing to lose.
Hopefully.
I cant help it.

Birthday Babes

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE TAN
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIONA SIM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNN LENG
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE TAN
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIONA SIM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNN LENG
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE TAN
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIONA SIM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNN LENG
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE TAN
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIONA SIM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNN LENG
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE TAN
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIONA SIM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNN LENG

I LOVE YOU GIRLS:D

Endless

The throbbing pulse in my temples is non stopping.
And im still struggling with the article.
I lost my focus, my determination, my interest if it even exists in the first place.
Distraction, is all im left with.
I'll be back real soon.

FML

Great, its the last day of holidays,
Im stuck with researches to do*dreads* and im sick.
AND MY GREAT FRIENDS ARE LIKING MY POST ON THT. FML.
HAHA.

Steamboat was in sync with the weather last night and WE FINISHED EVERYTHING on the table.
Great for the food, Boo for my tummy.
Rah.
We shld do tht again, with the whole sleepover thing. haha.

On the other hand, Im going to see sab tmr during lecture and I cant wait for that.
I miss you loads sab!
Oh well, back to "trying to do my work".
I've been told that im putting on weight. FML

Boxed

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE ONE, THE ONLY BEST BUTT, VALERIE TAN JIA HUI!!!
Congrats on being the 3rd to be 17th:)
No more 'no fringe hair with 24 clips', no more braces, no more stupid actions.
ok, i take the last one back.
haha.
ANW!
you've been a GREAT friend anyone could ever ask for.
Thanks BEST BUTT.
I LOVE YOU!!!

You shall be stuffed with food later.
See ya babe<3

Eywar

Yeah, Avatar was good!
But I got nausea 1/4 through the show due to the 3D specs.
haha.

So for Christmas,
I got a drawer, a bird and the fact that IM REALLY UPSIZED.
Hmmm...
Well, I cant be upset cos afterall I knew this was coming.
To be a better dancer, you'll start to gain muscles and all.
Im not finding an excuse for my increase of food intake.
heh:p
Oh well, I wasnt skinny skinny, never will I be.
I just got to accept how I am before wanting others to.
:)

MERRY CHRISTMAS :D
I am really clueless about what im suppose to do.

Midnight

I bet you dont even know I would constantly steal a look at you.

Dreams

I owe alot of updates!
But I dont want to twit them. haha.
I'll try my best to twit!:)

Anw, Its Christmas eve!
and I think I look like a pre-wedded pregnant teen going into those 'Mother-baby' stores to get those tiny little socks.
HAHA.
Cuties they are but THEY COST A BOMB:(
oh well....
I guess I'll just gasp air for the first week of sch next week.

Catching Avatar tmr with TPDE.
Im not really interested but Im in a roll hanging out with them. haha.
Then BBQing at night at Ivan's.
like finally im going to Ivan's hse. I must be the only nerd. yes, nerd.
ha.
ok... I hope I twitted well. Its so weird.
haha.
Laugh as hard as you can now, you might never get that chance again.

Bundled

Its a Stay Home Weekend for me.
Wasting time, lying arnd, falling asleep and all around again.
But its triggering my thinkalot cells to ttm again.
Sigh.
Damn you Qian.
SERIOUSLY, DID I READ TOO MUCH INTO IT?

Drifting

Sentosa was the right choice and im glad I went:)
Lucky I didnt burnt myself like the previous time but I did give myself a
sunburnt nose, a blister and 2 cuts on my toes.
haha.
Elena sweets are off in korea and I really hope she's enjoying herself there, forgetting about whatever that jerk did to her.
Celia and Emilie is meeting me for dinner later and IM LAZY TO MOVE actually.
haha.
Sab's finally back I wished I had more time to spent with her:(
Mark is off my mind BCOS for one last freaking time, he's just an EC.
is...sigh.
I was pretty darn sure I got that off my mind too but somehow I can feel the "EmoTrap" feeling lingering:(
Dammit.
Oh well, all I can hope for is either something to happen so I can do smt about it rather than TTM again or the shitty feeling to go away.
Sigh.

A-pa

Subway againnnnnn~
but seriously, standards at Tamp1's SW is bad!
the cheese wasnt toasted and the updated menu is not displayed.
HENCE, i payed more than what i saw.
BOOOO~

Im slacking at lynn's hse again and she's staring at me like a idiot would do.
HAHA.
SARAH B IS SO CUTE IN HER OVERALLS TODAY!
except for her drooling-.-
haha.

ok, enough for my twits.
got to run:)
DOGS ARE NON HALAL AND HAMSTERS ARE NOT VEGETARIAN

Guru

This is by far the most occupied chalet I've been (or its sometime since I been to a chalet more than 10.)
I seriously didnt have a single drip of alcohol but i was still seh-ed.
GOT SQUASHED ON THE BED WITH 2 ON THE LEFT, 2 ON THE RIGHT.
and the wooden bar pressing on my shoulder.
haha.
Good or what?
But anw, Fun was never ending.
so was laughter.
haha.

ok, i dont really know what i typed but im lazy to edit.
haha.
gtg prepare, DANCE at 6.
omg, i can feeel the pain ald.
AND AND AND,
MARK LIKES BETTY!
sob sob...
NVM! this is life, ppl come ppl go.
haha, I dont know what i just said again.
tsk.
AND IM GOING TO CONTINUE ON WITH MY LIFE JUST LIKE HOW I ALWAYS DO

Recital

Recital is the booomz.
haha, seriously.
I know the ticks are damn ex but its seriously worth it.
Saw a showcase of many different genres of performance and I LIKE THE POPPING ITEM!!!
I know, so not me right.
I also think so, but tht item was 'DOPE'.
haha.
Im not saying others are not nice ok...
Seriously every performance you will go, 'woah~'
AND AND AND OF COS THE DOPEST OF THE DOPEST IS THE INSTRUCTOR'S PERFORMANCE.
I didnt know how long tht performance lasted but I didnt want it to end.
haha.
ok, so now im here with a VERY hungry stomach calling for food as I blog and im suppose to be packing for chalet:P

Ppl arnd me are going for OTC.
Im so going to miss them:(
and next yr, I dont want to care what ppl say ald.
Im going to at least try.
I wont know unless I did.
SO, HAVE FUN GUYS:D
IT'S LIKE I SUDDENLY DONT WANT TO CARE ANYMORE

Disappointment

I had fun fun fun plus sian sian sian moments today.
haha, guess its really my post exam mental overload sydrome:p
haha.
got to drag myself outta bed early tmr to meet celia and monster for breakfast.
But....
I dont want to go offline:(
Not yet, not enough.
I THINK I GOT THE DISAPPOINTMENT I WAS EXPECTING

Contradictions

I think my mood is due to my fatigue.
But then on second thoughts, I think its not.
Like im just making up excuse for this stupid attitude.
Feels like im bluffing myself to believe tht im tired.
But I cant seem to place my fingers on the matter thts upsetting me.
This is so weird.
AINT NOBODY DO IT LIKE YOU, AND IM OFFICIALLY MISSING YOU

Visions

Pay attention to what you really want, not just what you think you want.

Grumps

I cannot think of another reason
Besides the fact that it was you who affected me this way
But it aint your fault either.
GET A LIFE

Flow

First it was the 'I dont think I can do it' problem.
Wouldnt say it was totally solved but well, conditions improved.
Now, its the 'Shit, ppl say cannot means cannot' symptoms.
Tsk.
I'm so fed up with myself for not being able to make up my mind about smt and DONT GIVE A FREAKING DAMN ABOUT WHAT PPL THINK.
I'm not going to please everyone anw.
Even if i could, I swear I wouldnt be pleased.
Where do I even start to solve this?
I dont want to hear 'its all withnin you'
I wouldnt even be asking if tht had worked.
Sure, tht would work but HOW TO START?!
Rah......
:(
FOCUS GOAL FOUND

Back around

Ha!
My nemesis is back!
yeah, ok whatever.
haha.
I had CMaths2 today which is the same as having Amaths.
oh well, I'm glad i survived the paper.
No high hopes pinned on it but deep down, just plainly hoping for tht A.
haha.

I find tht im wanting to meet sab like almost everyday.
WHATS WRONG WITH ME?!
*gasp gasp*
haha.

IWT on thurs.
I CAN DO IT.
i think.
haha.
then after all this papers, its time i enjoy?
or shld i rather say, start working hard?

DAY ONE WASNT THT THT THT BAD.

Quarantine

Maths at about 12 hrs later.
I can do it, just not sure if I can maintain my 'A'.
okok, stop procrastinating.
I CAN!
haha.

I'm realise, its been sometime where I use the word cheer up.
as in, I have been seeing more 'Cheer up Qian Hao' than me using it on others.
THIS IS BADDDDD!

Guess I really did changed and affected myself with everything.
hmmm..
Nvm, I'm still the me afterall.
Just need some soul searching.
haha.
I dont know what I'm talking about.
Its 2 plus in the morning-.-

RANDOM NOTE!
I REALLY WANT TO HAVE A BOWL OF HOT STEAMING PLAIN RICE, A HUG AND A GOODNIGHT'S SLEEEP.
ALRIGHT, I CAN DO THIS. I CAN SURVIVE THIS WEEK.

Mindgames

I realise its really tiring to think so much about it, then get upset over it, fuss over it and lastly think if im thinking too much about it again.
You take me out this far and left me hanging.
So what am I suppose to do now?
Play along like a fool and be a clown for you to laugh at?
or shld i just do smt about it and risk everything i have now?
I guess its time.



YOU HAD YOUR PLAY, NOW'S MY TURN.

Just another one

I dont seem to understand why I'm getting extra attention from ppl I dont want but
not any from ppl I want.

Is this how it works?
you get their attention with your qualities and loses everything if you're not up their 'standards'.
Its tiring then if it is.

Yeah great, now I sound like im trying to say im popular or smt.
Rah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




JUST NOT IN THE 'SMILE PPL SMILE' MOOD

Today,

I finally had a chance for breather.
Slept for 10 whole hrs and slacked my way through.
Went to sch to get my notes ready for the weekend mugs and met Sab.
Was told that I was really geeky but a happy one back in 2005. haha:)
Sab, less than a month to our 5 yrs!:D

Went to aunt's and played with the 3 kiddos.
Nic wanted to lie on me again:)
Surprised he rmb he enjoyed lying on me through the night during the funeral.
Silly yet cute:)
They're off to Vietnam in less than 7 hrs, and i'll take over every single room of tht 3 storey building.
MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.....


*I swear Matt's going to be the heartthrobe of many girls in a few more years.*

I guess,
I'm pretty much happy today.



WELL MAYBE NOT ENTIRELY

STREET

WOOOOOO....
Im damn high I dont know why.
I shld be panicking about the amount of time of sleep I'm missing and MY SPEECH tht is forever 3/4 done.
ha.
BUT IM NOT.

and and and and and
I MADE 3 NEW FRIENDS TODAY...





The reason im making such a fuss is bcos THEY ARE REALLY TINY... haha:D
SO CUTEEEEEEEE~~~


AND I MANAGE TO MEET MY DEAR CELIA TODAY: D
WENT HIGH AND WEBCAMMED WITH HER IN THE CLUBROOM TGT.
YES, BOTH ON EACH SIDES-.-
:D


LOVES MY DEAR:D
jiayou for your work kay!


PS,
SHE'S NOT AS SLIM AS THE PIC..
SHE'S A CHUBBY GIRLLLLLL!~
haha:p

REPLACED

I FEEEEEL FORGOTTEN, TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF, REPLACED & HURT.

AWAITING

I'm waiting
for all that magic to happen.
But that small voice in me is telling me its not going to.
I dont understand why but
I'm feeling sad about it.
Now I see the after effects of that first experience
and it scares me.



I NEED NEW HEADER & I GOT ELEPHANT THIGHS.

MUFFIN

So dead for World Issues tmr.

STALKER!