im tired~

everyone crawled out of bed at 515 today.
yes, we know its a saturday, but my sister was leaving to china on a sch exchange programme.
we left the hse at arnd 6 plus and was warmly introduced to the ppl at the airport...
count my sister 'suay', she got a teacher who is on the first trip, and has to look after 5 kids in the grp, and my sis is one of them.
she doesnt have any kids and she sticks to her husband like a panda to a shoot of bamboo...
haha, inside scoop frm my mum...
see, there's reason why working as a sch clerk has its good points...
(huh? i dont really get what im sayin, do you?)
anyway, everybody was practically telling her, must rmb this, must rmb that, dotn do this, dont do that and so on so forth...
i tried my best not to 'nag' at her, but couldnt help, cos im worried...
a 10 yr old girl,sorry i rephrase,
a bo-chup 10 yr old girl alone wothout her family on a trip to china for 8 days...
im so gonna miss her...
indeed i am...
the moment she went in i cried...
i didnt noe wh, but my tears just came flowing down...
haha...so unglam but hey, its real love ok:)
haha:D
and worse of all, my mum didnt even cry...
she had wet eyes but got over it...
unlike me, 10 mins later, i cried again...
haha~
so paiseh, crying in the airport...
my stupid brother say i cried cos i got nobody to scold and nag at for this 8 days...
idiot~
im going to scold him then...
MUHAHAHAHAHAHA~
so, we spent our whole morning there, reached home at arnd 10 plus, which is the time i would normally crawl out of bed on sats...
decided to watch some tv but all of the programmes showing were my sis'
haha...
gradually, i went to deep sleep..
i knew it was deep cos the last thing i watched was mtv's made, but when i woke up, it was ald chart attack and i missed lots of countdowns at the beginning...
booo~
and stupid chris brown's with you woke me up:(
BOOOOOOOO~
anyway, i went back to sleep again and i woke up arnd 2 plus...
walau~ 2 naps and only 2 plus???
my my, so slow~
did you realise my entry sounds weird and un-understandable?
yup, i am still in a sleepy daze so i cant really piece my sentences on wat i wanna express.
that explains the weird and sudden 'BOOOOOO~'s
haah...
ok, i got to attend my cousins bdae party tonight so im going to stare at the tv in daze for now...
but, im so tired~still:)
haha:)
hahahahahaaha...
didnt noe why i did that also...
my nerves are not connected yet...
haha:)
got to stop or else im going to laugh all the way:D
IMISS MYSIS!!!

oh ya, i forgot to tell you all this funny thing...
the sch spelled my sister's name wrongly on the tag...
she's lim fen ru, but they spelled
lim ren fu...
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA~
and she didnt even realise...
she happily waved the tag and i thought i saw ren fu...
haha, then she paiseh and stopped waving:)
i so bad right...
nvm, she's used to it:)
in fact, everyone's used to it:D
hahahahahahahahahahahaha:D
i really got to stop:D

finally, an a girls outing

VALERIE TAN JIA HUI DIDNT COME TODAY!!!(as requested by val(obviously))

woohoo!!!
after all these while, we finally had an all girls outing!!!
not mentioning the lunch outings we had after sch:P
anyway, we are suppose to meet fiona(sleepy-head) but she over-slept for 1 hr:)
haha, lucky me, i called her before i left...
:P:P:P
in the end, she came at 11 plus plus...
but its ok, cos i was always late too:D
so, i waited blurly at pasir ris mrt station...
then came lynn...
she went to the arcade first to play and blah blah blah....
ok, fast forward...
~~~~~~~~~~~~
everyone met up and we went to the library to hunt for seats.
we practically whisked around in the library before deciding a spot.
we brought out our 'must-dos' but was laughing away as usual:D
i forgot what we were laughing about...
ok nvm, but we had the most amazing girl-talk throughout the whole day...
haha...
typical girl stuff like,
confessions, crushes, blah blah blah(fill in the blanks)
and there were also embarassments to it:)
too bad ppl, i wont share cos its smt i would keep it close to my heart for own entertainment and memories:)
hah, like psycho like that:)
anyway, found out lots of things and we basically just thicken our skull to tell each other our sweet moments with our 'ahem's :D
most of it was sweet, but some of it(like mine)
was idiotically funny...
fiona couldnt even control herself...
oh wait...
she could not control anything at all:D
haha, sorry fiona~
ok,so we had fun(though val didnt come, sad~)
and when it was time to leave, everyone didnt want to...
we stood at the mrt station for like 10 mins...
without any topics, but was trying to create some to stall time...
im so gonna miss this kind of outings...
and next week, sch's coming back...
not that its smt bad but we got to put that nerdy-us back on and switch off our girly-crazy(and wadever you call us) buttons:(
till this point, i dont really noe what im saying...
but i noe i REALLY did enjoy today's outing:)
I LOVE YOU GUYS:)

ps. val, I LOVE YOU TOO!!!

busy busy day:)

i practically crawled out of the bed with an agenda waiting for me...
9-wake my sister up and prepare her for sch
945-bring her to sch
1130-wake my brother if he still isnt awake for him to fetch my sis
12-10pm? my own freedom!!!(as in hw, rest and etc...)
too bad for me, my agenda worked only halfway...
after i brought my sister home, i watched CSI(dont ask me the contents cos i forgot)
and i woke my brother up at 1115 just in case...
well, as expected, he reacts with a turn to the other side and snore hos way through...
i woke him up at 1130 again...
this time he doesnt even react!!!
walau~
i have to fetch my sis then...
i was thinking, nvm at least i get to spend more time with her:)
but e moment i stepped out of the hse, i started cursing my bro...
the sun was bloody sunny and i rmb-ed wat the camel taught us:
too much UV rays increase the chance of us getting retarded children in the future...
so sad, cos i stayed out for 1 and 1/2 hrs:(
sob sob, cos i had to buy lunch for my mum after i fetched my sis...
and in summary,
i sweated liked a pig, have sore legs and butt frm riding the bike and worst of all....
im going to have a higher chance of getting retarded children in the future!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~:(
anyway, at least i did smt for everyone today...
and the sense of achievement is GREAT!!!
but i stilll cant get over the fact that im gonna have retarded kids:(
weather really changes like a women's mood...
ytd was raining heavily, today the sun is blazing like crazy...
my god ppl, save the earth!!!
:D:D:D

rain rain go away:)

i dont really mean i want the rain to go away, it just sounds nice as a title, thats why there's the song rain rain go away:)
raindrops hit town again today just like ytd.
i didnt noe if it was heavier than ytd or wat, but i liked the feeling of staying indoors while its raining heavily outside:)
it would be really nice if it rains heavily tonight while evryone is asleep(mostly) and we would wake up in the morning, in bed nice and cozy:)
thought i have to bring my wonderful sister to sch tomoro, but at least there's a whole month for me to await the rain arriving at night till morning and i would be able to lie in bed like a dead pig(pork) and pretend im not awake:D
that would make my day...
ahhhhh~(in a relaxing way)
:D
however, i dont mind getting out with a few of my frens and just stand in the open while the raindrops fall on our head....
that would be really stress-relieving:)
but my advice, nv ever do that in your sch uni. especially the one like mine, with only one layer...
normally its ald translucent.
i dont need to go round showing ppl my pork belly or wadever:)
anyway, thats all for today cos time is up for me:)
and my bro is rushing me like crazy:)
so long~
I MISS DANCING, and im turning into a pig...

ps. i did more work today!!!
i did maths revision today!!!
great achievement for me!!!
haha, self praise:D

my retarded holiday!!!

woohoo!!!

my mt o levels is over...finally.

i know its my best subject but trust me, having 6 hrs of it everyday for a week can really make me have phobia of it, but im glad its over now:D

however, my sunjects were horrendous...

i only passed 2.

so sad, but im gonna work my ass off!(seems like i always say that)anyway, so today( actually ytd) i totally spent my time fighting with the inner me.

like struggling with tv and studies...

i know i said to work my ass off and i really do, but somehow, i was just glued to the tv...

hey, but i did at least 4 qns in the end...

haha...

thats a big achievement ok?

cos things dont change overnight:D

so tomoro will be 8 qns and so on so forth...

i hope...

:D

anyway, i had plans this whole week, but bcos of my results, i dont think its safe to ask for permission...

therefore im so sorry to sab and huiying:(

sorry~

but, i'll promise to meet out with u all again!!!

speaking of meeting out, i feel like going to the beach with my family and friends separately...

pasir ris for friends and east coasts for family...

haha, cos i feel like playing in the playground in pasir ris park!!!

cant wait, if that is im allowed to go.

oh! and i realised that singapore's museum is kinda interesting.
watching frm a show on fri, tells me so...

i dont noe, call me old-fashion or watever, but im definitely going to visit it!!!

ok, i've got lot more to talk about, bout its way too long and i want to catch some beauty-sleep:)

will continue the next time round:)

fiona never, NEVER fails to get a stupid and retarded picture of me:)

multiply-ians:)

sweetie, im going to miss the troubles you gave me for 8 days:(

random(:

cleanest toilets:D

ok, im not a big fan of pink but i just ran out of colours to use:P
anyway, everyone who knows me know my parents are damn strict and i respect for that.
though smt i hate it...haha, who doesnt:P
ok, so since the day the internet is installed, which apparently is this yr, my daddy said that we have to earn time for the use of internet through the cleaning up of my hse.
at first, we thought that its simple...
just vacuum and arrange things...
but the problem lies at a point where i have 2 siblings who would fight to do that too:)
talk bout us not cleaning up the hse...ya right:)
so everyone started fighting to clean the hse to earn time and its only 30 mins more added to our minimum 1 hr.
and so finally, my dad set-ted another rule and said: u can wash the toilets and gain 1 hr. for my room's toilet, 1.5hr if you vacuum-ed my room together.
crap, washing the toilet is one big task i hate doing besides bringing out the clothes...
in fact i hate all..
anyway, back to the story, we relunctantly washed it whenever we want to during weekends and we washed it any old how...
but magically, this week, im proud to say that i have the cleanest toilet ever compared to other days cos my toilets have been washed 4 times since friday till today.
who washes their toilets so many times?
and its us:)
mind you, i did the 3 times out of 4...
and i did this cos we had so much time to gain.
and i gained 3.5 hrs more this weekend and in total i had 7.5(with addition of my minimum time)
i nv enjoyed this weekend better...
but i thought, was i going to wash the toilets EVERYDAY in the june holidays?
and i think my parents and the toilets*yes, u heard right* would be so scared to know that the toilets are being washed EVERY SINGLE DAY!
hah...
and i think i can stop washing it for a long time...
4 washes in 4 days:)
haha...
nothing can stop us(me and my bro) frm gaining time...
i noe we're kind of pathetic but too bad, we have no choice!!!
so ppl out there, count urself lucky that u dont have to *shai yi fu*
and yes fiona, im referring to you:D

let nature take its course:)

happy advance vesak day!!!

though i dont celebrate but i do know there's a free day for me!!!

and thats good enough cos i really need it for my chinese revision:)

chinese 'o' levels is 8 days away and i noe everyone is stress...

i bet the G-b***h is too:)

but i know i gonna work my ass off and beat her drop flower spill water:):):):)

(luo hua liu shui)

lame~

ok, anyway, i noe i haven been in a gd mood recently and im still the same now but i dont want my blog to be dark and gloomy like some ppl whom which i dont understand wat they are saying cos they like speaking 'complicated' and very 'inner world':)

ok, i admit, im targetting someone...

sorry, sometimes ppl got to be childish to do this kind of thing to vent their frustrations:)

and i bet that person dont even noe...

though i lied to e person bout smt im expressing..

i just cant bring myself forward to trusting the person fully again.

sometimes we even brush across without saying hi...

i know the person pass me, but i just kind of ignore, and i bet the person is doing the same cos i noe the person saw me.

i dont even think SHE'll ever do the same in trusting me again.

i just hope she really noe she hurt-ed me deeply.

not bcos of one matter, but that matter triggered it all...

its hard to let it pass just like that.

i'll just let nature take its course.

ps.THANKS VALERIE for everything again and again:)

I LOVE YOU and THEONE and MULTIPLY-IANS:D

picture speaks a thousand words:)

best times anyone could ever enjoy.




pls dont go.










pls forgive me for reprimanding you.






















thanks, i really mean it.


















mind my nonsense.

when i woke up in the morning, i realise wat they did to me was never gonna be erased from my life, be it good or bad.
rmb-ing val, sab and maybe even fiona or lynn is migrating after this yr totally crushed me like a piece of paper.
mind you all, i dont really have that kind of friends who would listen and tolerating to my nonsense, my whines, my stories, my cries and maybe some advice to them.
well, there is some of them, like amirah, huiying, ian(its true), elvira(the nonsense only) and some others(yes, i didnt forget you all)
but there are still some who just listens and forget, or doesnt even give a damn to me.
like smt i think, am i like a potion in a closet, 'you' are the magician and you only 'use' me when you need to and shove me back in the shelf when you dont.
i seriously dont understand why you would do that.
but, honestly, i dont have to give a damn about you either.
sometimes i ask,why should you have control over my life?
and, yup, i dont noe why too:)
but i just noe you control everything in my life cos i always compare myself to you and in the end, i suffer.
why do you have to be so perfect?
so, thanks for entering my life and ruining it.

ps.sorry, mind my suck-y attitude.

moody retard

ok...
im kind of moody now...
but i'll try to keep my spirits up(:
so, time for bactrack part 2!
and im putting it across as a general week summary:D

my dearest grandfather;

he scolds us for not keeping the toys after we played.
he smokes.
he likes sitting in those stretched-chairs made of rubber strips listening to opera on his walkman.
but,

he always volunteer-ly gives us money for laksa even when we just finish our lunch.
he quits smoking.
he always gives up the chair for us to play with it.

and he has cancer now, terminal stage.
though i can admit im not close with him, im still devastated cos afterall he's my grandfather and he alwasy gives us money for treats:(
my mum and i have been crying every night.
he doesnt noe, for now.
so does my grandma, i really dont noe wat will happen but i noe they must noe bout it.
i just hope he can be cured with chemotherapy:)
i love you.



school life

sch is as per normal and bitches are still bitches, f**kers are still themselves, not forgetting irritants and perverts.
honestly, im very tired, i just want time to stop and let me take a break frm everything and everyone.
and i just realise, im too lazy to accept new knowledge, which is bad...
i dont noe wats happening to me!!!
today, lynn, val, nic and i talked and we realise that we doesnt want to leave sch.
10 yrs of 'wats the frist period' and so on so forth makes me so used to the sch life we have.
but a sudden twist comes when we go off to poly/jc, cos everything is different.
i dont noe...
i just want to be a kid...
i dont want to go into a complicated and cold adult world~
i noe im just cheating myself and u can say anything you want but i just DONT WANT TO GROW UP!
i love school life!!!
though with 'bad' ppl around:)



dance

seriously, I WANT TO PERFORM
i dont noe what might ppl tink but i really think its a torture to be watching my fellow freinds and not dancing myself...
watever the genre might be, as long as we all did it together.
the process might be tiring and gruelling, but we always, ALWAYS enjoyed ourselves!
this racial harmony, my parent said. NO.
and that was final.
first time in my life, i want smt so ad till i cry every night( maybe with the addition of the cancer news)
but pausing the time and rush, i wonder, my friends or the dance

DANCE THEONE
-love with my life -those who stood by me
-last performance -gathering for us cos its either duty for them or dance for me
-even better dance this time -really want to spend time with them and dressing up!

see that?
i really want to dance, but i nv even thought bout my frens.
how would they feel if i chose dance over them.
how selfish i was...
im so sorry.
its the same as asking me to choose one parent to follow when a divorce happens.
im really caught up badly by this..
help~

so practically, this is wat has been going on for the whole week...repeating itself...
the crying, the dilemma, the hesistation, the grief and all..
and friends who stood by me, i really grateful, cos this is a tough time for me emotionally.
im sorry for being extra noisy and crazy cos i honestly dont want to show you all a black face in sch and i hope you all will understand that im crazy for a reason:D
thanks ppl...
but some ppl, thanks for ruining my week.
rubbing into my wounds, thanks bitch(es).
and i'll dedicate this to my friends,
thanks a lot for all this while,
though i may be having rollercoaster emotions smt, you all still tolerated me( i noe)
and im sorry that i hurt you in ways that i did before.
i love you:D
you noe who you are:)

retarded week(:

what a week!
ok...i just finished watching 'the showdown' and its another stupid(retarded in fact) episode...
but its still funny...:)
time for...BACKTRACK PART 1(intro sound effect)

monday 12052008

today was our sch's marking day(woohoo)!
and we(theone) actually planned to go out for movies or something like that...
but problems arise;
1. sab had to meet her beeeeeyyyybeeeeeeeeee(sorry sab)
2.fiona is going to m'sia(truly asia)
3.val has art remedial(again)
4.theres only lynn and me left
5.there wasnt any show to watch cos ironman(to me) is a stupid and anyway the top 4 problems ald arise so i couldnt be bothered to find a way to solution:D lazy me:)

but, feeling very unfair, cos i want to sneak out of the hse, i dated lynn and val for lunch(:
we went mos burger and munch our way through(:
haha...though lynn didnt really liked the burger(: sorry:(
anyway, so i kind of enjoyed the day and i cannot rmb what happen after tat(: so lets move on:)

tuesday 13052008

yay! sch is back though we have to face the music of our results...
and practically i dont rmb what papers i got back first or later... so im just gonna share all that i noe...(if i rmb)

overall for mye

el-47/100 (argg! 3 more marks!)

cl-63/100(at least i won the G-bitch)

maths-32.222222/100(expected)

pure chem-too horrible to rmb

combined sci-55.5

combined humanities-50.5

ok, and my L1R4 is 31...
and all i have to tell myself is QIANHAO YOU CAN DO IT!(i noe it sounds stupid)
anyway...tats it for part 1 ...
i'll continue part 2 in next time(provided i am assessable to the comp)

my not-so-retarded heroine--valerietan:D

thank god(or watever you believe in), valerie tan jia hui came to my rescue today...
risking my password to her, she said she'll help me!
cant be grateful enough, though i dont noe whether it'll help a not...
but i still want to say, THANK YOU VALERIE TAN JIA HUI!
and thanks to theone(i also dont noe why. oh! i noe, for tolerating my retarded nonsense:))
i love you guys!
and not forgetting dance!

retarded-ly pleading for help(:

omg, cant believe im doing this again.
4 yrs ago, i did the exact same thing and here i am doing the same thing which i never even consider if im gonna be consistent bout it(:
anyway, my worse nightmare has not appered, which is the 'matrix page' i called it(:
cos i stuck at a really BIG problem cos i dont even noe how to get to the page to change my skin(:
anyone, pls help me!