BRACE UP

ok, enough of the tears.

plog time.

val(:

this, is the right way to walk(:

natural pics look the nicest.

fiona gone wild.

fiona screaming.

aint she a cutie?

idiots reunite(:

SCREWED

i thought i would be fine throughout the whole day but i was wrong.
now, i dont know how i shld feel.
fuck.
i shld have just knock myself out and stop myself frm dwelling if i really like what i got.
see what happens now?
tried appealing after much consideration(aka procrastination in my case) .
but then i realise the ones i want had ald bcame the ones which made me say 'i shld have worked harder'.
damn.
yes, i scored 21.
so what?
im sorry i lied bout getting 16.
16 is for MI.
would u do it if u were me?
maybe not.
recently ppl told me tht i am always thinking too much.
i dont even know it.
thts worse than knowing.
cos if u know, u'll have the choice to stop thinking.
but i dont.
always causing emotional struggles for myself, always thinking ppl would be saying ' omg, she's in E1 and she get this kind of shitty score?','just another showoff like the dumb blondes in american movies'.
i'm not surprised if i go crazy one day.
now, am i thinking too much again?

NIU BEGINNING

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL:D

new year, new beginning.
thank you, im sorry
welcome, you're forgiven
wouldnt made it this far without all of you(:
BIG thank you to all.
LOVES:D


*picture-blog
PLOG.
haha(:
memories i want to rmb forever.

ps: sorry if i displayed any un-glam photos.
c'mon, it wouldnt be as bad as mine. with specs:(
(pic 26)

ANTICIPATION

:)

2 DAYS TO CNY:D

what do you look forward to during CNY?

haha, i noe....collecting ang baos.

hmmm, i have to admit,

i dont see new year as a get together time with ur other relatives.

im lucky to have close relationship with my maternal side of the family but not my paternal.

i dont like them:(

due to the once in a blue moon meetups, i kind of dread going to meet them this new year.

i only look forward to seeing my grandma.

haha(:

she's a cutie.

then i'll be off to my maternal side of the family.

woohoo!

fun-ner:p

anyway honestly, im looking forward this CNY is eating lots of goodies and wearing new clothes:D

haha, so...

goodies here i come.

oh, and ang baos(:

come on, who doesnt?

:D

REWARDED

3 DAYS TO CNY:D

BIG REWARDS!
had a shopping date with mami ytd at bugis street.
well, i have to say.
shopping with YOUR own money is really a very nice feeling.
no, savings frm allowance frm ur parents doesnt count:p
shopped for CNY cum poly clothes with less than $100 and manage to get 3 blouses, 1 jeans, i skirt and a wallet:D
haha.
i really love that feeling.
i can just spend without feeling guilty of spending mami's money.
though i have to admit i cant do this frequently.
cos i love it, and i cant stop.
i seem to want everything i saw at the later part of the day.
so, since i've worked these few days, i'll just treat it as a reward for myself(:
oh, would like to thank mami for accompanying me and giving me comments and suggestions needed. and not.
:)
i noe, i make one shopping trip sound like its the BIGGEST deal in the world.
well, it is in mine(:
with my own cash(:
not savings(:
not that i have too:p

woohoo!
finally im going to have a GOOD night tonight:)
i think.
i hope.

LOVES
theone and ppl who noe who they are:D

ok, i manage to be able to blog again.

for today(:

ok, went bedok with my mum to shop arnd.

ate popiah. like sooo long nv eat.

inside joke(:

oh ya, today i wrote the longest address ever.

ignore the address(:

oh, then i had a trial reunion dinner tonight.

haha,trial steamboat.

cos we bought the new induction cooker so my parents scared on actual then fail-.-haha(:

the cooker(:

the noodles(:

the soup(:

haha(:

ok, im off tmr and im getting my pay!!

haha, got to open my new acct first and get my atm card.

haha, fiona, ur not the only one liao.

haha(:

oh, saw siyu and jacintha:D

anyway, got to go(:

going to force myself to sleep:(

like smt is lost lor.

nvm:(

goodnight(:

LOVES

THEONE.YOU

hmmm, just realise my left arm bigger than the right.
weird-.-
potential fatty bom with uneven arms:(
okok, really going liao:p

ok, im skiving.
as in my boss not arnd and im like...
ya, nvm.
make it a quick one.
today's 'going hme' will surely be a dread.
:(
plus im tired.
anyway, rmb i said judging frm my character blah blah blah bout the new clothes?
haha, i wore the first one on sat.
2 days only-.-
the day i went to buy the cam, the one im wearing in the previous post.
*i noe, i look so fat.look at those arms. ok nvm, bluff myself. its muscles(:
back to the topic, amirah went shopping b4 meeting and she bought the exact same one-.- only pink.
haha.
which is what im wearing right now.
haha.
ok, gtg.
will blog again if i can(:
not frm work anymore of cos.

I MISS THEONE!!!
next meetout, CNY 3rd day(:
haha, in other words, ang bao here we come(:

and YOU:D

bought a cam!!!

ok, toy cam.

love it cos its so toyish and it will be featured itn our dance competition.

danceworks! 09.

haha, we called....

wait let me recaall.

oh, move-a-holics i think.

haha, frm multiply to move-a-holics.

hmmm, miss M.

haha, both also start with M.

nvm...

anyway, got to go(:

LOVES

to all who noe who they are:D

ok,really last post ald.
haha:D
tht day we had dance and i dreaded to dance closer.
the steps like freaking hard and honestly, i nv revise so....
hhaa.
then mande and seniors suggested eat you up by boa.
honetly, im not a die hard fan of korea and jap.
but i really think this is a cool song, and her steps are like,
blow me away.
haha(:
she's cool, very.
like her dance, her face and her voice
ok, sound like psychopath again.
luckily i dont like her smell all tht.
haha, inside joke.
so ppl, shld watch her video but not the usa version cos its ewww.
korean version better.
as in korean director.
nvm, i'll give the link.

Boa-eat you up
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nWPLd87AST8

ok, last post for today.
had leave today.
frm the boss.
cos she got impot. things, cant guide me so i no need to go.
ok, so went to tamp to open bank acct for my eagles award $150 dollars.
but in the end, my mum realise i had one when i was little.
anyway, went for lunch at jack's place.
empty.
ordered baked fish fingers.
sorry no pics for my meal, too hungry.
digged in immediately.
my mum had american cheese cake cos lunch time over, so she had her so called 'high tea'.
OMG!
the ACC was like suuuuuuuuuuuper delicious lor.
for cheese lovers, every bite is like so cheesy.
mmmmm~
ya, i noe, freaking fattening:(
i dont care la, for now, tmr then regret:p
ok, then turned into a pig and went shopping!!
supposedly buying CNY clothes but ended buying sme normal clothings which i suppose im going to where to poly. isit?
frm my own judgement of my character, i'll wear them in the next 2-3 weeks:)
haha(:
then...
discovered tmr have to celebrate my gm bdae at sme vegetarian restaurant.
erm, i have to say i dont really like veggie but honestly its kind of cool cos they look quite appetising.
BUT!
then spoiled my marvellous and perfect plan:(
hmph:(
wasted.

ok, blog bout smt else(:
hmmm..lets see.
oh, went to work on wed finally:p
as in oh-so-good jenny let me off the first 2 days knowing i have this stupid registration thing.
but it was a rough day:(
cos i dont seem to understand what i have to do and i kept doing the wrong thing.
oh, and i nv went through so many nunbers in my life before.
invoice numbers, code, DO(sme kind of code for numbers).
thought i almost went cocked eye:p
haha, then i was dismissed early cos i finish my work(:
woohoo, then my fav part of the day came.
going hme!!
no la, of cos with good company la(:
if not why best:D
anyway, thanks for everything(:
you noe who you are:)
loves.

ok,the long wait was finally over.
and i've ald forgot(and not wanting to rmb) how i was feeling.
well, had a hard time dealing with it.
but, i shld just concentrate on the inprovement instead of the bad.
ok,i manage to pass my nemesis, maths.
then english which i totally didnt expected.
then, ok nomore liao
others is either didnt do well or remain as prelim.
nvm nvm, dont talk bout it.
im going to submit my choice of schs later.
its kinda hard for me, cos of my results and interest:(
but i've decided.
1) psychology and early education (np) (deals with kids i think)
2)optometry (np) (deals with eyes. duh.)
3)gerontological management studies (tp)
cool right? the name sounds pro.
very.
ok, its study and research about how ppl age tht kind of stuff....
aiyah, check the dict la.
so, deals with old ppl.
haha
shant talk about the rest.
i forgot also, i also anyhow put.
cos im really not interested!
nvm...
ok, i feel so sucky at posting today.
dont talk bout it liao:(
shall blog bout smt else:D

went to work today.

yes, i found a job.

no wait, the job found me.

you noe, in the kind of my whoever whoever friend...

well in this case the 'whoever' is my daddy.

ok, im working as a asst. admin. i think.

for a company named c-my room.

they are like closing down so got lots of paperwork to do.

they sell funiture.

disney funiture!!!!

haha, i walked in and saw the showroom and almost fainted.

got my fav. mickey mouse!!!

the old version one somemore.

ok, i sound like a kid.

nvm.

so i did lots of filing, typing and maybe some surfing. haha(:

then went for my lunch at 12-.-

its been awhile since i had lunch at 12.

no wait, its been awhile since im awake at 12. thats better:D

then type, file, punch holes, surf, look arnd, pretend to work.

haha, no la kiddin:p

anyway, the boss, jenny is a very nice woman.

understanding and patient in teaching me.

*thanks jenny*

and by the end of the day, i suddenly got 5 ring files and a stack of paper on my table.

hmmm, wonder if this was what ppl meant be 'the world out there is cruel'

cos i think my 'colleague' like purposely one:(

nv give me all at one go, i ask she give, ask again, give again.

hello...i started with 2 files only.

nvm, maybe i think too much.

ok, thts all.

feeling better today, maybe cos into work, nv think much bout anything.

but i still do rmb...

3 days.

*deep sigh*

*another deeper sigh*

ok, enough sighing, u get the picture.

ok, skving a little while.

oh! reflections frm the laptop.

yes, i have a laptop(:

not really mine, but u noe what im trying to say(:

my messy workplace.

think before e 5files 1stack thing happened.

H-A-T-E-H-I-M

what does it spell hate him(in a bimbotic tone).

i mean my brother.

he's really a love him, hate him person.

reason for a second entry today?

cos i just quarrelled with him:(

idiot lor.

stupid idiot.

talk like gangster.

forever showng me his smug face.

you think u tall u big size means everything ah?

im still ur sis leh, have some respect can.

fish lor, i really wanted to walk up to him and punch him till his teeth fall out.

and i'll stuff them into his nose.

ok, cant show any emoticons for anger.

and cant say what i want to say.

if not my whole blog would be **********...

really lor, all the vulgarities just wanna flow out.
idiot:(

ok, he just referred to me as the somebody.

:(

fat idiot.

ok, im going to look back one day and think this is a lame entry.

but im really ******* angry:(

love him. i mean then. who wouldnt?

HATE HIM!!!!!!

SEE! picture also got smug face:(

ok, rmb my post ytd?

the bad bad feeling.

seriously, think its a bad omen:(

then its like im ald freaking pissed with myself for some stuff which i dont wish to talk about.

then came the call frm mande.

not blaming you girl.

then checked with mr helmi.

he say ya.

so funny(sarcastically), he ask if im excited-.-

what a jke right?

i told him does "NO!!!AHHHH!!!!NO!!!" frm the replies of my friends sound excited to him, he say he dont noe whether that is exciting a not-.-

i salute u cher-.-

hai...

then! speaking of all these bad mood stuff, i wanna complain bout the new front door!!!

yes ppl, if u didnt noe, im having a new door. FRONT door:(

so i have TWO front doors, how unique-.-

cos my flat is upgrading, and my hse has an extended indoor balcony.

and the stupid town council dont want to build an extended pavement to my balcony which connects to the lift.

anyway, nvm if u dont get it.

just noe tht im getting 2 doors. 2 front doors.

and today i thought finally i dont have to get up for sec 1 orientation.

then tht bloody drilling sound came on.

not the normal drilling, the very very very loud drilling sound.

maybe its due to the distant and the size of the drills increased.

woke me up at 9 plus:(
peeked out after dinner just now, saw 1/4 of my wall gone.

(the white thing is the only leftovers of my wall)

so ugly:(

so not thoughtful of the town council:(

nvm, vented everything and feeling much better.

EXCEPT the nervous feeling of getting the results.

:(

all the best to all.

oh my, the way i say like we all going on battlefield.

ppl who fail, die.

ppl who pass, survive.

nvm.

IGNORE.

argg..

today is the last day of the sec one orientation.

finally.

1E3 pissed the hell out of me by not responding but they manage to pull off the cheer we gave them in the end.

oh my, i still prefer the 1N3 last year.

anyway, while web-surfing, i suddenly have the HUGE feeling of butterflies in my fat tummy.

in other words, im really nervous for the release of results.

i just dont think i can pass and move on.

ok, even if i do, dont think i would score well enough.

and even if i score well, i dont noe where to go.

i seriously dont want to go jc, so pls stop telling me to go there.

no point me going and flunking everything.

ya ya, i nv try i say i'll flunk, of cos i'll flunk.

but my point is, its my future, let me decide?

i seriously dont understand, why must sitting in the office earning HUGE sum of money be a good job?

i noe u'll live well, everything will be easier but do you enjoy it?
why cant a good job be smt tht u really enjoy doing?

maybe bcos the society is really practical and ppl no longer do what they like but what they have to.

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!

i dont even noe why am i saying this.

and once again, i'll just stop thinking of it.

in short, im just running away frm e problem.

i dont even want to noe my results anymore.

in fact, i cant be bothered with what ppl thinks about me anymore.

think whatever that makes you happy.

freak.