SCREWED

i thought i would be fine throughout the whole day but i was wrong.
now, i dont know how i shld feel.
fuck.
i shld have just knock myself out and stop myself frm dwelling if i really like what i got.
see what happens now?
tried appealing after much consideration(aka procrastination in my case) .
but then i realise the ones i want had ald bcame the ones which made me say 'i shld have worked harder'.
damn.
yes, i scored 21.
so what?
im sorry i lied bout getting 16.
16 is for MI.
would u do it if u were me?
maybe not.
recently ppl told me tht i am always thinking too much.
i dont even know it.
thts worse than knowing.
cos if u know, u'll have the choice to stop thinking.
but i dont.
always causing emotional struggles for myself, always thinking ppl would be saying ' omg, she's in E1 and she get this kind of shitty score?','just another showoff like the dumb blondes in american movies'.
i'm not surprised if i go crazy one day.
now, am i thinking too much again?