oh my god.
im really an idiot in this subject.
look at the time now.
how long have i've spent just to finish this piece of 2000 words analysis?
since 11 pm last night.
i do agree im not veyr focused but my understanding levels seem well, kinda low.
oh my, i dont even know what im typing.
i finishing the T of the whole PACT finally.
thanks to all who have helped and accompanied me till now.
and the song playing now in my itunes is CANT HOLD ON by melee, but then right at this moment he's singing "i wanna be free"
what?!
its so contradicting to my situation.
wait, isit?
i dont know.
my brain is not functioning abnormally anymore.
yes, it wasnt normal in the first place.
28 May 2009
26 May 2009
END OF JAVA WORLD
im so going to fail java:(
poor Sam, patiently teaching us again.
but not knowing his pathetic student of his(me) blogging about his subject.
or does he?
once in awhile i'll look up, meet his eyes and give him the "yes, i get what you're teaching" face.
but today im giving him a lot of "i dont get it, i just dont get it" face.
(i would use the "magic" word but i know my mum is tuning in, so....HELLO MUMMY:D )
ok, back to topic.
christina is complaining that she's tired.
im not cos I OVERSLEPT!
damn it, it was CARC practical, and i was so looking forward to it.
damn it damn it damn it.
now i have to go get a MC bcos i overslept-.-
if not i'll be marked absent.
or i can just choose to be marked as absent and make sure I DONT OVERSLEEP again.
if not i wouldnt get a distinction even if i did. not saying that i will but at least i'll get to know my own progress.
hmm, what shld i do?!
poor Sam, still teaching patiently when im dying here.
sorry Sam.
ooh! the only thing i get what he's teaching now is how to calculate speed
'speed= distance/time'-.-
25 mins to dismissal.
thank you BUNNY for the charger:D
back to showing him "i get it" face.
poor Sam, patiently teaching us again.
but not knowing his pathetic student of his(me) blogging about his subject.
or does he?
once in awhile i'll look up, meet his eyes and give him the "yes, i get what you're teaching" face.
but today im giving him a lot of "i dont get it, i just dont get it" face.
(i would use the "magic" word but i know my mum is tuning in, so....HELLO MUMMY:D )
ok, back to topic.
christina is complaining that she's tired.
im not cos I OVERSLEPT!
damn it, it was CARC practical, and i was so looking forward to it.
damn it damn it damn it.
now i have to go get a MC bcos i overslept-.-
if not i'll be marked absent.
or i can just choose to be marked as absent and make sure I DONT OVERSLEEP again.
if not i wouldnt get a distinction even if i did. not saying that i will but at least i'll get to know my own progress.
hmm, what shld i do?!
poor Sam, still teaching patiently when im dying here.
sorry Sam.
ooh! the only thing i get what he's teaching now is how to calculate speed
'speed= distance/time'-.-
25 mins to dismissal.
thank you BUNNY for the charger:D
back to showing him "i get it" face.
PICSTORY-PHOTOSHOOT MODE
LONG LONG STORY summary.
in a photoshoot mode recently unknowingly.
pardon me pls(:
in a photoshoot mode recently unknowingly.
pardon me pls(:
THANKS:D
I LOVE YOU:D
WONDERFUL 7.
24 May 2009
I TELL MYSELF NOT TO, BUT I JUST CANT.
another lazy sunday afternoon.
here am i beating the lazy bugs in me.
finishing up my wds proposal, like finally:D
im really glad that my course are not like hell as the others.
my hell might not come yet but of course im certainly happy i can grasp the basic.
but sure enough i have my own bad times.
like how i can only sleep at 2 plus 3 everynight.
its tiring how i cant seem to fully satisfy myself with my work.
i have easily edited my work for like countless times but till now, it still seems well, not a very good piece of work. just a standard or even below average work.
no, i dont think my expectations are high, cos i know i can do better. and i want to do better.
isnt that the whole point of studying.
i cant possibly stand going through the work for the sake of it.
arrg, me and my 'old-fashion' thinking:(
i tell myself million times not to think, worry, compare so much but i just cant do it.
i think if im irritating ppl, i think if ppl likes me, i worry if ppl might be talking behind me, i worry if my words hurt them, i compare with evrything ppl do and wants to do it better...
im very tired.
i think i might just die of thinking too much one day. like grow a tumour or smt.
will be back to blog again when im feeling better later. hopefully.
here am i beating the lazy bugs in me.
finishing up my wds proposal, like finally:D
im really glad that my course are not like hell as the others.
my hell might not come yet but of course im certainly happy i can grasp the basic.
but sure enough i have my own bad times.
like how i can only sleep at 2 plus 3 everynight.
its tiring how i cant seem to fully satisfy myself with my work.
i have easily edited my work for like countless times but till now, it still seems well, not a very good piece of work. just a standard or even below average work.
no, i dont think my expectations are high, cos i know i can do better. and i want to do better.
isnt that the whole point of studying.
i cant possibly stand going through the work for the sake of it.
arrg, me and my 'old-fashion' thinking:(
i tell myself million times not to think, worry, compare so much but i just cant do it.
i think if im irritating ppl, i think if ppl likes me, i worry if ppl might be talking behind me, i worry if my words hurt them, i compare with evrything ppl do and wants to do it better...
im very tired.
i think i might just die of thinking too much one day. like grow a tumour or smt.
will be back to blog again when im feeling better later. hopefully.
21 May 2009
RELIEVE
YAY! weeekend rolls in and im going to meet them soon!
but test are coming up so we got to get tgt for a study meeting soon.
difference now is we cant ask for help if we need to:(
but nonetheless, meeting up with them makes all problems go away, im sure they will provide me some stupid ans and trigger my memory to rmb the real and true fact for my qns.
I MISS YOU,YOU, YOU AND YOU.
yes, u know who you are.
I know you're not having your best of times now.
But im behind you all the way no matter what.
Thanks for making my day once again, like you aways do:)
ILOVEYOU:D
19 May 2009
ALICE OUT JAVA IN
omg, i dont get the stupid bee qns.
im in sch for 2 hrs.
PRSP again.
and currently im stuck at a stupid bee qns going round and round and round......
and i have to come in contact with Emaths again.
circle circumference=3.14.
and i thought u would nv get to come across tht again:p
sam seems like he's trying his best to teach us but then at the same time he's making it sounds confusing.
arrggg, so much for a closing ceremony for alice.
next up, JAVA.
and im so going to die.
im in sch for 2 hrs.
PRSP again.
and currently im stuck at a stupid bee qns going round and round and round......
and i have to come in contact with Emaths again.
circle circumference=3.14.
and i thought u would nv get to come across tht again:p
sam seems like he's trying his best to teach us but then at the same time he's making it sounds confusing.
arrggg, so much for a closing ceremony for alice.
next up, JAVA.
and im so going to die.
16 May 2009
15 May 2009
IN THE LIBRARY
im currently in the library, with fiona staring at my screen and sab blogging.
haha, random.
sab says hi, fiona says hi too, but u dont really have to care about the latter. haha(:
ok, im super cold now with frozen fingers.
bye(:
haha, random.
sab says hi, fiona says hi too, but u dont really have to care about the latter. haha(:
ok, im super cold now with frozen fingers.
bye(:
11 May 2009
CUTS
"...realise what you have been doing is a mistake."
"pls dont take us for granted"
"dont forget to spend more time with ______and______."
"alot has been on my mind and now more"
"if not for me, none of these would have happened..."
"...maybe you just cant balance all, why not take one out..."
"find me when u can balance..."
"why u suddenly say tht? smt happened?"
"maybe i think too much..."
"kinda feel tht ur spending lesser time wih us..."
"i'll be waiting, just come back when u can..."
"the ones u see more often than me..."
"somebody said scared u take us for granted? _____isit?"
"...dont know hw much time u spend with him per week as compared to us..."
"....im not blaming you...sorry if i sounded mad or what..."(i know u were at tht moment, sorry)
"....i think ____and _____will tell you."
"no, why did you say tht?"
"...anw, i think im being too sensitive..."(no, you werent)
"sorry, thanks. meet for the last time today?"
"now you have all the time for them...im the one tht's sorry."
"honestly, for me i dont feel anything."
"i'll wait as long as i have to...enjoy life.."
"did ____do anything to you?!"
"i feel so bad, i caused everything"(you didnt)
"i have no idea how to help, but i'll stand by you."
"no one's fault, we all adjusting to the timing."
"you cried?"
"thts what i want you to be(happy). sorry for screwing your life"(you seriously did not)
"as in, we'll work this out tgt"
"dont say sorry, but i cant promise i;ll be happy."
"you ald spending lesser time with me then now must lesser?
its ok if you dont get it.
nobody is suppose to.
sorry for everything.
i just dont know how long i can hold on with this situation.
not forgetting the current 3rd catergory.
guess i cant be greedy then.
i really have to let one go no matter what.
how bout letting myself go?
this shldnt even have started if i rmbed tht i was,
the girl who can never have a happy ending.
sorry, i love you all.
"pls dont take us for granted"
"dont forget to spend more time with ______and______."
"alot has been on my mind and now more"
"if not for me, none of these would have happened..."
"...maybe you just cant balance all, why not take one out..."
"find me when u can balance..."
"why u suddenly say tht? smt happened?"
"maybe i think too much..."
"kinda feel tht ur spending lesser time wih us..."
"i'll be waiting, just come back when u can..."
"the ones u see more often than me..."
"somebody said scared u take us for granted? _____isit?"
"...dont know hw much time u spend with him per week as compared to us..."
"....im not blaming you...sorry if i sounded mad or what..."(i know u were at tht moment, sorry)
"....i think ____and _____will tell you."
"no, why did you say tht?"
"...anw, i think im being too sensitive..."(no, you werent)
"sorry, thanks. meet for the last time today?"
"now you have all the time for them...im the one tht's sorry."
"honestly, for me i dont feel anything."
"i'll wait as long as i have to...enjoy life.."
"did ____do anything to you?!"
"i feel so bad, i caused everything"(you didnt)
"i have no idea how to help, but i'll stand by you."
"no one's fault, we all adjusting to the timing."
"you cried?"
"thts what i want you to be(happy). sorry for screwing your life"(you seriously did not)
"as in, we'll work this out tgt"
"dont say sorry, but i cant promise i;ll be happy."
"you ald spending lesser time with me then now must lesser?
its ok if you dont get it.
nobody is suppose to.
sorry for everything.
i just dont know how long i can hold on with this situation.
not forgetting the current 3rd catergory.
guess i cant be greedy then.
i really have to let one go no matter what.
how bout letting myself go?
this shldnt even have started if i rmbed tht i was,
the girl who can never have a happy ending.
sorry, i love you all.
09 May 2009
08 May 2009
05 May 2009
PRSP: IF/ELSE
IF:
FAILS PRSP EVENTUALLY>MANAGE TO PASS PRSP
.will feel so stupid
ELSE
.rejoice
CONCLUSION:
programming is not my stuff.
FAILS PRSP EVENTUALLY>MANAGE TO PASS PRSP
.will feel so stupid
ELSE
.rejoice
CONCLUSION:
programming is not my stuff.
03 May 2009
CAN I PLS HAVE MY TV BACK?
My source of a lazy weekend has been unplugged:(
this didnt happen just this week.
its been 2 weeks+++.
and im missing the programmes terribly.
***
came hme frm orientation and discovered the tv's gone.
reason: the upcoming MID-YEAR exams.(my siblings)
"why? why? why must you do this to me?"
and i get a 'you're not the only one sacrificing' answer.
ok fine, i'll put up with it like a real matured (going to be) adult.
***
OMG! i cant take it anymore!!!
hmmmph.
i read the papers, magazine and i see all the upcoming show and before i can go 'oh! i wanna watch that' i rmb i literally have no more tv.
i've ald missed the star awards, just my luck and others.i've forgotten what ald.
was having botak jones tht day and was staring at the tv above me.
turned and ask my brother if he felt weird?
thats bcos we're watching tv for the first time after 2 weeks.
-.-
and bcos of this incident.
i realise im somewhat a slave to the tv.
good job qianhao(:
ILOVEYOU:D
this didnt happen just this week.
its been 2 weeks+++.
and im missing the programmes terribly.
***
came hme frm orientation and discovered the tv's gone.
reason: the upcoming MID-YEAR exams.(my siblings)
"why? why? why must you do this to me?"
and i get a 'you're not the only one sacrificing' answer.
ok fine, i'll put up with it like a real matured (going to be) adult.
***
OMG! i cant take it anymore!!!
hmmmph.
i read the papers, magazine and i see all the upcoming show and before i can go 'oh! i wanna watch that' i rmb i literally have no more tv.
i've ald missed the star awards, just my luck and others.i've forgotten what ald.
was having botak jones tht day and was staring at the tv above me.
turned and ask my brother if he felt weird?
thats bcos we're watching tv for the first time after 2 weeks.
-.-
and bcos of this incident.
i realise im somewhat a slave to the tv.
good job qianhao(:
ILOVEYOU:D