I TELL MYSELF NOT TO, BUT I JUST CANT.

another lazy sunday afternoon.
here am i beating the lazy bugs in me.
finishing up my wds proposal, like finally:D
im really glad that my course are not like hell as the others.
my hell might not come yet but of course im certainly happy i can grasp the basic.
but sure enough i have my own bad times.
like how i can only sleep at 2 plus 3 everynight.
its tiring how i cant seem to fully satisfy myself with my work.
i have easily edited my work for like countless times but till now, it still seems well, not a very good piece of work. just a standard or even below average work.
no, i dont think my expectations are high, cos i know i can do better. and i want to do better.
isnt that the whole point of studying.
i cant possibly stand going through the work for the sake of it.
arrg, me and my 'old-fashion' thinking:(

i tell myself million times not to think, worry, compare so much but i just cant do it.
i think if im irritating ppl, i think if ppl likes me, i worry if ppl might be talking behind me, i worry if my words hurt them, i compare with evrything ppl do and wants to do it better...
im very tired.
i think i might just die of thinking too much one day. like grow a tumour or smt.

will be back to blog again when im feeling better later. hopefully.