ALL I CAN SAY IS

THANK YOU EVERYBODY. really(:











& of cos i didnt forget you,


*sorry:p


AND THEN I REALISE, I AM NOT AS UNIMPORTANT AS I THOUGHT.

IS IT ME?

Tell me, am i being troublesome?
Being too irritating or even being too obnoxious?

Bcos of these few incidents, i feel like arguments and unhapiness that occured withnin me started with...
yes, me.
and misunderstanding is the key.

why am i such a weirdo?



FUCK YOU.
ITS REACHING A POINT WHERE I REALLY JUST WANT TO SCREAM MY HEAD OFF, BLACKOUT AND DIE.

THE SMILE THAT KILLED ME

Compared to all the embarassing things that has happened to me, this has got to be the worse.
Probably due to the fact tht this is happening at this age and in front of a BIG crowd.

Having really confused feelings, i wanted to hate her, but at the same time i knew i was in the wrong too.
(deep deep sigh) if you've been my loyal reader, you've noticed that im always on both sides even when im in the situations and as i said, this is far worst.
hate her, dont hate her, hate her, dont hate her......

Then come the counselling and the letting-everything-out session with my wonderful pairs of ears at hme.
Problem didnt lie with her, it was me.
Uncontrollable tear glands is at its job again and im really really in the lowest state of my life condition:(

I swear i didnt do anything on purpose, im being myself.
But being myself is a wrong action.
So, what shld i do?
Be myself, do the wrong thing? Dont be myself and do the right thing?

I'm feeling much better now, but i dont deny im just running away from my negative thoughts.
I think i need professional help. Please.



IF UNDERSTANDING AND FORGIVENESS IS CHARGEABLE, I OWE MILLIONS NOW.

BIRDS & BEES???

No......
it was just bees.
and its not an antalogy used here.

Heard some spraying sound and smelt some insecticides, then we realise our neighbour was spraying it outside our hse. BOTH doors.
the cause of that, bees buliding their hives on the wall.
and yes again, BOTH DOORS!

having the flashback of the bad incident in sec1(where i got stung on the head by a honet) i was super freaked.
called the Town Council and realised we are not alone.
A few hseholds have experienced the same thing!

However, 5 mins later, the bees were gone.
i hope they are not there tmr:(


damn, my blog writing is going bad:(


THANKS FOR ENSURING THAT IT WAS OK DARLING:D

BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME

Taeyeon;Seohyun- Because You Loved Me:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hU6-2ixI4Qw&feature=related

I know bcos i like them so im going to say they are good. but they really are.
The prounounications and the voice.(& looks!)
haha.
Sab, you're going to love taeyeon more.
she hit the highest note of tht song.




THANKS FOR ALL TOLERATING AND FORGIVING ME ALWAYS.
I LOVE YOU:D

3x3 = 9!

i nv had a time like this for a long time.
and im not missing it again.
thanks girls:D





HAPPY 9 MONTHS DARLING:D

PLS PLS PLS,

GET WELL SOON WAIGONG:(

BUBBLES!

look at miss faridah!!!! my tutor:p

I didnt know what i was doing but i bought a bottle of bubbles today.

and i found the joy of a kid again.

so did my mates:p

miss faridah so cute!

culprit!!!!!

anw, happy birthday:D

hah!

finally, meeting dars tmr!!!

yay!!!!!:D

1 more day:D

BEAUTIFUL TODAY

1.Saw eclipse on tv, cool....

2.Scored 23/25 for maths class test, YAY!!!

3.Exams ends on the second day of the beginning of the MID YEARs for me! EXTRA MONTH OF HOLIDAY:D

4.Had dance with the SO BAD jessica ser and got cheated with melted ice cream.

5.Going to have all 3 options this weekend. Yes!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST;

MEETING MY DARLINGS THIS WEEK(without sab though:( )

*pssst, sorry i cant upload any of our photos, cos the file too big.

promise after the outing i will.

Why, why, why....?

3 WAY CROSSROAD

Manage to finish my CARC assignment's presentation!

Its a wrap for the case study.

yay!!

haha.

had heels that almost killed my foot today.

didnt die badly compared to shili's poor foot but still, almost 10 hrs of heels and formal wear.

who wouldnt die as a first timer?

they look like m bodyguard. haha:D

and i finally manage to find the way to pass by 3 roads.

GOOD MORNING!

i look ****y:(

Morning guys.
gonna camp in sch later to finish the finishing touches for my CARC assignment.
its finally the end.
Coming to sch in formal suit on tues.
damn, im nervous.
Nights:D



LIKE A PAPER BOAT, I FLOAT FURTHER AWAY.

GET WELL SOON!

Another suffering day of ulcers.
and a new suffering member have joined in to add on to my misery, SORE THROAT.
damn.

anw, GET WELL SOON DARLING!

TO ALL OTHER DARLINGS:
STAY HEALTHY!!!
SPREAD THE LOVE:D
HAH.

HEATY PERIOD

yes, its back.
The horrible time of my life is BACK!!!
its the period where heat are accumulated withnin me.
caused by insufficient rest, liquids in body and huge amount of stress and workload.

Symptoms i've received:
-ULCERS! i hate them the most. makes me really moody. im having 4 at one go right now:(
-Neck Sprain. ARRRRGGGG....terrible reminder of my young-er days.
-Headaches & Migraines
- (and these above cause me to have ) BAD MOOD & IRRITATION EASILY.

omg, i hate these.
i hate all of it.

SERIOUSLY, I MISS THE OLD TIMES. EVERYTHING.

NINE TO NINE

9 DAYS TO 9 MONTHS:D

ONE TINY MISTAKE, ONE BIG REGRET

Been dancing for 11 years(woah, just realise the years!) and today i finally realise how a tiny little mistake you make while dancing can make paralyse for dancing.
which means, you cannot dance anymore.
Not tht i didnt know but not so serious.
To me, thts definitely saddening.
really.

anw, bcos im one of the (un)lucky ones tht got spotted of my mistake, i was called out to be the (defect) role model. haha:)
demostrated and i was told not to do this certain leaning front of my feet while plie-ing (read as plee-a)
its a sort of squatting movement.
and ryan said if i continue doing tht and treat it as i habit, i will have slip disc.
which will cause injuries to my back.

one small little movement leaning to the front cause back problems.
woah.

ok, right now, i've adjusted the postition and made sure i wouldnt hurt myself.
but still dancing is like tedious, you make a mistake and you cant dance for life.
and i just realise tht-.-
but im not giving up.
not when im learning all these to improve myself!

THANKS RYAN FOR CORRECTING ME:D


BIG THIGHS OR PERFECT TECHNIQUE SKILLS?

I (want to) SURRENDER

I WANT TO!
really really badly.
but i know i must keep pushing on even though its hard.
YOU CAN DO IT!!!


TINY MR BEAN.
such a cutie!!! from the goodie bag of this yr's NDP.



DARLINGS, I MISS YOU ALL SO SO SO SO MUCH.

ITS STILL RAPE EVEN IF HE'S YOUR HUSBAND

just signed a petition on miss holly's blog.
and i was thinking ' why not?'
i bet there are ppl out there experiencing this kind of problems hence the ongoing petition.
anw, the matter im referring to is forced penile-vaginal sex by a husband on his wife is not considered rape except in extremely limited scenarios.
which is like....still considered rape.
and i've come across tv shows on wifes getting brutally tortured and rape by their own husband and there's nothing they can do about it.
its 'behind closed door' btw. not some sexual shows-.-

so, this petition is to urge our prime minister, Mr Lee Hsien Loong to sort of abolish or change (i dont know which) laws.
and, miss holly said she's only the 729 person to sign.
and im the 803 person to do tht.
you can remain anonymous like i did.
wait, i just said tht out so ppl know i signed.
ok whatever:p

here's the link to miss holly's blog, cos she's better at persuasion and the whole phrasing of this whole matter cos she's the (ex) teacher:
http://holly--jean.blogspot.com/2009/07/say-no-to-rape.html

and here's the link to sign the petition:
http://www.notorape.com/

i suggest you read miss holly's blog first to better understand from her cos im making such a confusion here (and plurk). haha:D


MOVING ON,

i have a busy week.
thts all i can say for now.
hah:D




I NV THOUGHT THT I COULD DO IT, BUT YES I'VE MANAGE TO CATCH AND DO THE STEPS FROM GENIE:D

BUSTED WEEKEND

1. Human Computer Interaction Class Test : Monday
2. Computer Maths Extra Practices
3. Computer Maths Class Test: Wednesday
4. Problem Solving and Programming Assignment Part 2
5. Interactive Communication Skills Video E Learning
6. Computer Architecture Proposal editing
7. Computer Architecture Presentation preparation
8. Web Design Practical
9. Web Design Project
10. REST (if possible)

THERE GOES MY WEEKEND:D
on a brighter note, the time is well spent(:


LOVE MY DARLINGS:D
MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH!

ONE MACSPICY PLEASE

CLASSIC PHOTO FOUND:D 16/11/07

1) Manage to chomp down one MACSPICY without any problems.
2) Cheer up val, chats will get more meaningful soon. i promise.
3) Dont worry about the little fella sab, he has all the nurses talking care of him. hah:p
4) Dont worry fiona, sun comes out after the storm.
5) LYNN!! you blur cock. haha:D congrats on passing your STATS(whatever tht means) haha:D
6) Enjoyed dance with the tune (guess what?) 'Man in the mirror' by none other than MJ. -.-
7) IITSC interview was awesome:D
8) Having 2 hrs lesson, 4 hrs break and 1 hr lesson tmr. GOOD? BAD?
9) Counting down to my 'FREE FROM BAN' day. (23 days)
10) 16 days to 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9 MONTHS:D



INJECTING UNREALISTIC EMOTIONS INTO YOUR LIFE IS FATAL

H1N1

Few days back, we were all laughing and teasing about how fiona is dangerous with a confirmed H1N1 flu-er in her course.
Today, the director of our school came to our lecture class of C224, C225,C226 and C227 and informed us tht one of us has contacted H1N1. (think its C227)
NO school holidays for us though which im really happy as i'll die of E-Learning.

so the table's have turned and im the one who is most likely to contact H1N1 betweeen Sab, Fiona and Brandon.
Fiona's course is like super BIG but mine is in the same room as the FLU-ER.
anw, FEAR NOT!
im taking care of myself and trying to avoid places that are crowded.
Also, trying to avoid ppl who have low immune system just in case i get it and pass it to your.
(great chance to avoid ppl you dislike, hah:p)

PLS TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELVES ALRIGHT:D
i know im naggy but
RMB TO TAKE YOUR TEMP,

AVOID CROWDED PLACES &

COVER YOUR MOUTH WHEN YOU SNEEZE OR COUGH:D

*poly quarantine is no joke as you might die out of projects, hw accumulation and the struggle of understanding lesson without a teacher. TRUST ME. so, dont go wishing that you get quarantine.

*NO FIONA WAS HURT IN OUR SHUNNING OF HER FEW DAYS BACK:P

DAY OF YOUR BIRTH

HELLO _____(SAB'S BABY BRO NAME) :D
its the day of your birth and i must say you are lucky to have 4 friends of your sister here anxiously waiting for your arrival though we dont know why we are anxious too.
haha.
AND..
im suppose to win the bet.
damn you fiona.
ahah:p

cant wait to visit you soon.
your sis said you're cute:D
anw, WELCOME TO OUR (soon to be complicated for you) WORLD!
haha, so sarcastic:P

MY PROBLEM'S SOLUTION

YAY!!!
never thought that it would be solved this way, but this problem is officially solved.

officially gone thanks to you:D

and....


HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAYLE:D
its been a year since i blogged this.
hah.

GAYLE'S 16TH: http://livethatmoment.blogspot.com/2008/07/random.html


GAYLE AT 'BEAUTIFUL ROCK' OF TAIWAN:D





THANKS FOR ALL TAGS BTW!

MAKE UPS.

woah, i did simple make up for mummy today as she's going for her NDP training(Full Dress Rehearsal).
not like its the first but just i was thinking shldnt it be mummy doing it for her daughter.
ok la, not tht im complaining just saying...
haha:D
she looks great and i know she put in a lot of effort into the performance..
so i cant wait to see her performance even though it has funny costume and headgears:p
also i cant wait......
GOODY BAGS and ENTRY ticket for this years NDP.
wow, the only occasion thts still going on despite the spread of H1N1.

anw, heard the fireworks are really nice(thanks mande:p)
so i cant wait for tickets.
Sis is getting to watch it for her NE show.
woooh, cant wait cant wait.

and of cos i didnt forget the year i joined:D


SERIOUSLY IF YOU DID _______, IM SO GOING TO LOSE THE RESPECT I HAVE FOR YOU.

STRENUOUS ACTIVITIES

Quick definitions (strenuous)

▸ adjective: characterized by or performed with much energy or force ("Strenuous exercise")
yes, writing java program is definitely performed with much brain energy and force(forcing ourselves to do it)

▸ adjective: taxing to the utmost; testing powers of endurance ("A strenuous task")
and yes, it is DEFINITELY testing my patience and endurance.


and weird enough, as much as im frustrated with java, and is really tempted to squat in a corner and sulk about it, im not willing to be beaten by this programming.

NO, i do not hate java and im going to keep fighting.
i can do it(: