On

I guess its pretty much up to me what kind of trip I want it to be.

It'll be good.

:)

Back

Too much frankness and sobs in a night sure beats the hell out of me.

I'm just going to close my eyes, drift off and hope I wont get puffed eyes tmr.

Night babes.

Maybe

I really dont know why but just...

i dont even know how to say this feeling.

Pile

I feel like I dont belong in your world anymore.

maybe i dont.

Tension

and I'm just waiting.

Go

There's bunch of words that I think I should probably throw up to you,

but I'm really holding back.

One day, if you ever hate me for not telling you;

give me a chance to explain.

I'm being selfish by appreciating what I have now.

sorry.

Refresh

I'm equal and limited to every single one of you.

So don't look here.

You'll realise I have nothing of what you want.

Or rather you'll have what others have.

By then, we'll come to a dead knot. Once more, another time.

Masquerade

A night full of it

Bulb

and after a really long time, I realise i'm feeling lonely.

kinda pathetic but the truth.

Flint

Oh well, I guess its rather sweet to brush our teeth and look like idiots with the foams around our mouths every single morning.

Tucking me into bed without the leaving the toes out

and of course,

knowing that I can always count on you no matter what.

Now, to find you.

Check

I dont need you to be

tall, fit, handsome, tan or even rich.

I just want to be happy when I'm with you.

Failed

ok attempt on changing blog address failed!

haha.

oh well.

THEN SOME STALKER CAN CONTINUE STALKING ME.

*coughs* haha.

i feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel sick:(

Talk

Ya, haven been talking for sometime.

and all we got to do is to quarrel.

If its not a choice, dont ask.

I dont see the point in doing all this.

FUCK.

dont ask.

super pissed and disappointed

Today,

its another day with the same problems,

same troubles,

same challenges,

same result of no solutions.

Tell me what to do.

Maybe its not really a good idea being myself.

Indulgence

Yeah, maybe she's right.

I do miss the times.

The company, the closeness, the feeling.

Then again, it seems like its an unachievable dream.

Even so, I dont think it'll be the right now

It never was, will never be.

Maybe not now.

Probably the reason why I want to be single and all alone.

Pre

Today's the performance and im still up.

waiting for my nails to dry so that I can go and bathe.

HAHAHA.

yes! I'm a smelly girl.

HAHHAA.

all the best to everyone tmr:D

Sped

Im so going to miss you all more after GEMS:(

Alice

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH YI!:D

sorry i forgot but then rmb-ed and pretended I didnt know.

HAHA.

ONE MORE DAY TO GEMS 5.

and its kinda sad actually:(

Wardrobe change can be described as

'I dont freaking give a damn even if guys are there, I just want to get out of this costume and into another one.' *proceeds to strip*

yeah, its tht bad.

ALL MY FATS:(

18

YES!

I'm 18 and I cant thank everyone enough for what they've done.

really.

This is the best birthday I've ever had:D

Thanks for all the cakes(and fats) I've got.

will edit pics in soon!:D

and btw,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE & WEI JIE:D

Nycton

well, the hectic week is coming to an end.

But its not really as good as I thought it would be.

Apparently, im not as strong as I thought I could be.

Oh well.

Anw, WE WON BEST EMPIRE:D

this is like my first time.

haha.

then again I feel kinda sad cos I was half gone throughout the camp.

But then, my empire mates are really nice to me so...

honestly, I didnt feel any awkwardness whenever I'm with them:)

Thanks guys:D

tmr's dance, museum for GC and dance again.

Pls, stop changing the schedule.

Its mindfucking me and its killing me:(

So shld I think too much now?

Boomed

Alright alright, today I'm feeling much much much better.

Think it really helps when there are ppl listening to your rants.

haha. so thanks everyone:D

Tmr is going to be the busiest day so far.

Its dance, lesson then dance then lesson again then go hme collect my bag for camp, then go camp then dance then camp again. HAHA.

Its going to be tiring

and I hope I wont die. haha

Thank you all for coming to watch GEMS.

I'm going to be nervous so DONT POINT ME OUT EVEN IF YOU SEEE ME.

PLS PLS PLS.

haha.

Btw, I finally changed my header.

Its not taken frm the web.

Thats my legs.

My BIG thighs. haha

THANK YOU SO MUCH HAZEL:D

its 10 days to GEMS!!!

AHHHHHHH~

all the best and pray i dont die during vetting on wed.

FIGHTING PPL!!!:D

Blocked

Seriously, I dont know why am I even there in the first place.

Yeah, start doing props and start on our practise.

I did all that.

I didnt get to really do anything productive for my items except for cleaning up steps.

I cleaned up Ryan's and am proud that I finally got the super uber fast timing.

BUT thats all I did during camp.

Yeah, while everyone is waacking, breaking and dancing their asses off.

I'm practising over and over and over AND OVER AGAIN.

I did improve thanks to the camp.

It was productive, though not very.

Then, there were those who didnt get a chance to prove themselves, get opened up to opportunities.

Sigh.

What a cruel world this is.

'You're my friend bcos you're good'.

WTF?!

whatever la, gonna jump to bed and rest for this ONE SPECIAL DAY.

and its rushing all over with lesssons, trainings and REALLY HOPEFULLY CAMP.

I know ppl are upset tht im not going but i dont want to give a fuck anymore.

SERIOUSLY, WHY DO I GIVE A DAMN ABOUT SO MUCH WHEN IM SUFFERING ALL ALONE.

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK

:(

oh another thing.

YOU GOT TO DANCE KAY, DONT COMPLAIN ABOUT BEING TIRED.

ITS 13 DAYS TO CONCERT.

we are suppose to be aching and tired all over.

THINK ABOUT NOT BEING ABLE TO DANCE. like me.

screw everything la:(

Flat

FB is being a bitch to me after a really tiring day.

Was in sch since 8 plus till 8 plus.

WOAH. 12 hours.

And RYAN'S dance is (Y) serious dopeshit.

And I only manage to barely catch up and do the steps properly on time.

I've yet to execute it with essence BUT ITS REALLY HARD.

Let's hope this item is not the one thts going to combine with bboy.

And I learn shuffling on the floor today.

Seriously, its fucking tiring.

I almost died-ed in the choreo.

Never felt so tired in a dance before.

AND, its only day 2.

Rah. im really tired:(

I dont know if ppl understand but...I love this, I want to do this.
But then again, am I losing what I use to have bcos of this?

Tell me smt pls.

Nights ppl.

Ease

Ok, its the first day of my battle today.

AND APPARENTLY, my previous injury cannot be ignored.

I thought it'll be well by now.

So, I rested for a month and here I am today doing the same steps that got me this injury.

Then there I go hurting myself AGAIN.

I kept telling myself to bite through, split gracefully BUT ITS FUCKING PAINFUL.

haha. yeah, its tht painful.

Oh well, I dont care.

I'm going all out on the actual day but for now...

I dont even know if I shld see the doctor.

What if the doctor said not to dance for a month!?

Its less than 18 days to GEMS.

LESS THAN 18 DAYS. omg:(

did i mention I have 2 knees that are currently with fresh flesh saying hello to everyone?

Yeah, burnt my knees so I can like see my flesh.

HAHHAHAHHAA.

I just realise I AM TWEETING!!!!

ok, back to topic.

tmr is at 9 again. and the thing is the schedule is not out yet.

oh well.

guess its off to bed now.

Really exhuasting even just sitting here. AND ITS ONLY 1 ITEM TODAY.

sigh.

nah, I'll get better:)

I'm really sorry about promising to meet you girls.

I'm really sorry for having to upset you all:(

Reason

Doing something I love isn't suppose to be this stressful.

fuck it seriously.