I guess your 'no idea, kind of' hurts me more than what is going to happen next.

I need to know if you really mean it.

Its all better and I'm sorry about what I said before.

You're very dear to me.

So, I sincerely say I'm sorry.

:(

I made ytd I LOVE YOU day.

and because I want everyone to show their love, I made today

I LOVE YOU DAY 2

:D

suddenly,

I WANT DOUBLE CHEESE BURGER.

it'll be great if i can have it tmr.

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

(L)

I see it, I know it, I feel it.

But I cant have it.

I know, I understand.

Its more of a test if I said yes.

Just to get away from you.

you monster.

secret number #33.

when you remember even when I didn't expect you to.

Tell me its worth

I dont know if it'll be worse, or will it be better.

I dont even know if it will be the same.

More than that, less than this

If you set your priorities right,

then distractions wouldn't overwhelm you at all.

So damn true.

ok, snap out of it.

RAHHH.

I'm sick and down.

in the mind.

and there's nothing that can be done.

probably a scratch off my face will do the job.

:(

I really don't know if I should I consider myself lucky.

But I do know I feel freaking guilty and bad towards you.

And I'm sincerely sorry.

Time for some slow and sad songs

to keep me company while I drift off to sleep

shutting out the thoughts that are out to make me sad.

You can do it babe, I know.

If only you knew

Dont be such a spoilt brat pls.

we worked our way here so dont compare about how much we have and you dont.

you're making everyone worry for you and its hurting me alot to see what you dont appreciate.

Where can you go???

Wake up pls.

Please, i beg of you.

I'll graciously turn back time to stop this if I could.

I dont do this cause I hate you,

I care.

you dont know.

you're making things worse for sure.

you could have just shut your crap up and not let me know.

But you did.

So no matter what you say after that is not making me feel any better.

dont be such a hypocrite kay.

FPMO:(

I realise, 2.2.

you can die anytime but you MUST NEVER FALL SICK.

oh wells, there goes my weekend.

I saw you in my dreams.

right behind me hugging me to sleep.

Then you pushed me off the bed, onto the floor cos your sis came in.

HAHA

Now I know

I'm not sure whats going to happen.

I'm scared:(

catch up was great girls.

one more time!

I really want to thank you all for the guidance I had this year.

Thank you ah yan, xiao di, desmond, jing yi, james, alex, ben, ivan.

Come back as often as you can:)

Last

We didnt get our recognition but we know we are champions:)

Next year IIT, next year:)

Its camp again tmr!!!

and its been one year.

Its not

It wasn't because you didn't follow me back,

it wasn't because you said nice things to me and got me thinking,

it wasn't because I couldn't fit into the freaking formal dress any more.

I guess I wasn't happy since a long time back.

And even as everyone noticed, I did not see this at all.

I told myself to be but I realise, I really do realise that I am not truly happy.

And this scares me.

Is this suppose to be or am I the one being in my own world?

I'm not looking for commitment.
I guess I just want to fill up that space in me.

Its good that I saved it and didnt send it in the first place.

Save myself from the unwanted troubles later.

WHYYYYYYY:(

maybe its the time again to actually sit down somewhere and let the tears flow.

and I'm glad no one's free to pull me up from this mess.

yup, I find fighting back too.

at the same time, why shld i?

hmmm

Its about time to watch or even read a love story kinda movie or drama.

Then I can get lost in the world.

In their world.

Graze

Suddenly, I want to be in a BIG tee lying on the grass patch with the sun blocked out by the clouds, enjoying the breeze and letting the time pass by without rushing anywhere.

with snacks:) haha

ok, i realise i cannnot think of one word title and im so lazy to blog ald. haa.

so i shall KOPE fiona's tumblr post.

MUHAHHAHA.

I hate seeing that too

It’s love because I want you to be happy even if it means you’ll go on without me even if it means its going to kill me everyday even if it means we can only be ‘friends’ even if it means i’ll spend every night alone even if it means you won’t love me back. It’s love. Only for you.

OMG fiona.

Minced

"We know you're not always right, but we pretend you are anyway"

aww.

I didnt know guys did that for girls.

or maybe I've met jerks all along.

haha

Maneuver

So if everyone is being so nice, why arent things turning out nicely for them?

I believe I'm that bitch who took that one chance away from them.

I dont even know if sorry is the right word anymore.

Turning

I never regretted what I use to have,

but I do regret on what I've done.

Just that one thing in my life.

Damn

Sore

And there it is again.

Everything's back.

Every single piece of shit is back.

I just got to pull myself out but its fucking hard i swear

Cashed

Suddenly everything arnd here seems so tight, fast, overwhelming.

Man, I miss Cambodia.